its really heart wrenching to give it my all
yet all i get is "u choose money over everth else"
i admit im money minded, i do want lots n lots of money
but the thing is for u i can actl give it all up
i still do my best to meet ur demands even if it means using all my allowance when its barely the middle of the mth
i try my best but what accusations did i get?
even after everth is ok, u still dont understand what i need
u killed my heart the moment tt sentence came out alr
totally killed it big time

hv u ever felt so misunderstood?
i hv. n it hurts so so so so much

anw on a side note, i will be going to nyp bahs
hope tt everth will turn out well there.

haha its been a month or so since i blogged! :/
baby was telling me to go home ytd n blog since i had nth to do
then i ask him what to blog abt he tell me blog abt how short n fat i am.
sucker ttm right! zzzz but i still love him loads haha

truckloads has happened since the last time i posted. sighhh
i dont wana comment so much on whats happened but its been a whirlwind
oh mann >< i seriously screwed up my life la
anw at least things r on track right now haha!!
nafa application almost complete. now i onli need to get thru the audition *crosses fingers*
other its nyp n business management for me :/ dno if tts gd or not
but what can i do lor. also fixed liao ]:


working now bahs. money ftw okay! i want moolahhhhh
no money no honey ]:

hahaha life's prettyokay.
cut down on the drinking n smoking by quite a bit so hopefully b4 sch starts i will stop everth
i know i can :/
hope so!! anw i miss everyone at hc!! more than u guys wil ever know cos u guys carried on the dreams i had for myself

owells life's too short for regrets
but its onli from regrets where we'll experience and learn
life will get better i believe
i'll get better :D

lastly i love my big fatty baby!!
i will try to give u all my trust okay. like every bit of it
u said u will prove to everyone tt i nv made a mistake in choosing u
hope u will keep ur word cos i still hv hopes towards u
i love u

how to believe u?
now u tell me u still love her but its fading
u onli love me...
but then u tell me again ur r/s with her is tt of gan laopo and gan laogong
then what do u want me to say
nxt time if i find out u anyhow msg her
i cnnt complain or what cos yall hv tt status what

i dont know anymore.
just sent u a msg asking if u can stop hving tt r.s with her.
if ur ans is no, i wont say anth
i will wait till ur bdae is over.
i will give u a happy 18th bdae, then its over bet us.

i cnnt stand the fear anymore.
u dont know how scared i am on the inside
tts cos u matter so much to me
but i get this kind of thing.
dont blame me for thinking too much
i dont think im unreasonable in this matter
cos u cant expect me to trust u.

dont break my heart.

im sry cos ive disappointed everyone with my results.

whoo
ive quit thai express le ^^
going overseas to china nxt week for about a week
i dont wana go lor
i will miss my babyyy ]: and my steadd and my sisterss
ltr i come back baby dowan me how!
but he say u wont be like that de haha


i will back to get my pay n allowance n lotsa money for shopping!! hahah xD
then cny will be coming and i hv moolah cos got angbao.
butbut cny first day is on 14/2.
deardear cnnt spend vday ]: irritating lorrr blehss

k la i super super sleepy now
im gna go get some sleep then wait for deardear come back from chu shi
i love my dear dear! h.e <3

sometimes i wish ur temper wasnt like that
sometimes i wish u can understand me so that we wont hv so much conflict
i dont even know if u'll miss me when im gone
cos aft all u do hv the other half of urs, not just me...
haiss i'll mis u so so so much u know
i'll make use of what time i hv left to pei u
i love u baby. always <3